selves / portraits

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— छह हज़ार चालीस —

The first major Pride event of the month already happened over the weekend: Seattle Pride in the Park at Volunteer Park, and I already posted about that yesterday—whenever possible, I like events like that to get their own dedicated blog post.

That leaves only Friday and Sunday to tell you about today, and I think I'll start with Friday, since that's what the above photo is from: the set of frida ... a self-portrait, which Shobhit and I saw at Union Arts Center (formerly ACT Theater).

It was supposed to be Tracy and me, but she had to cancel. It's too bad, because she was the one who bought both tickets; when she first asked me if I was interested, I looked up tickets and told her it was a bit steep for my budget right now. She then told me she already had two tickets and would just give me her second, so I was like: sure! She's also a huge fan of Frida Kahlo, and she spent several minutes on Thursday evening texting me fun facts (or in some cases sad facts) about her.

When Shobhit and I were at Pride in the Park on Saturday, I had to text Tracy photos of two different sets of Frida Kahlo earrings I saw at one of the vendor booths. Incidentally, one of the texts Tracy had sent me on Thursday was, She was also queer. Her and Diego [Rivera] were married twice. There was an age gap. He was [20 years] older. He eas a manwhore and slept with her sister. They actually shared lovers separately. People fell in love w them both.

So, seeing this play kind of fit, in a way, with the kickoff to Pride Month. Although the performer, Vanessa Severo—who is actually Brizilian as compared to Frida Kahlo being Mexican—was a bit abstract about the queerness, in a sequence during the one-woman show where she sort of danced with different outfits pulled from the clotheslines that made up much of the set, some of them men's suits and some of them dresses. That's about as explicit as the show got about her affairs with women. It does have a moment of being very pointed about her catching Diego Rivera in bed with her sister.

Anyway, Tracy didn't make it. The Sunday matinee show we had tickets for was for 2:00, and at 12:17 she texted me, Ughhhh I woke up w a tweaked back and think I should cancel. I'm sorry ☹. Do you want my tickets? Shobhit was in the middle of his exercise routine and was planning to walk downtown with me anyway, and at first I was going to wait to ask him if he wanted the ticket before I responded, but then I decided I wanted to go either way. Why waste the ticket? And then ultimately Shobhit decided to go too.

It's too bad, because I was looking forward to hanging out and catching up with Tracy, who I have not seen since April (my Birth Week). Plus, I would have been very interested in her take on this play, which is apparently widely acclaimed, but I can see there being some ambivalence about it. Calling it "a self-portrait" seems slightly undermined by how often Severo switched between performing as Frida Kahlo and then talking to us as herself; she included a couple of anecdotes about her own life, evidently designed to illustrate how she related to Frida Kahlo. I suppose you could argue that it's a "self-portrait" regardless of which persona she's assuming. I'm fascinated about a Brizilian woman playing Mexican, though; they don't even share a language. More specifically, she's the daughter of Brazilian parents who immigrated to the U.S.; she herself has a completely natural, American accent.

I'd have been even more interested in Tracy's take on Severo's physical presentation as Frida Kahlo. Among Tracy's texts about Frida Kahlo on Thursday evening, she seemed to love how proud Frida Kahlo was of not just her famous unibrow, but even her mustache: She adored her mustache and painted it! The closest Vanessa Severo gets to acknowledging this, though, is "painting" the center of her eyebrows the first time she assumes Frida's persona, but even after that it never truly looks like a unibrow. And there's no reference whatsoever to a mustache the entire, 75-minute show. Which is to say, Severo doesn't much transform physically into the role, but, I would say she transforms quite effectively into the psyche of the character. She even does a good job of adopting a Mexican accent when speaking as Frida, and occasionally slipping into bits of Spanish and then reminding herself to speak English as part of the conceit of the show.

Overall, I have to say, I quite liked the show. I'm really glad I got to see it. There's a moment when Severo slips out of character and back into herself, as a preamble to explaining why she includes a section about Frida Kahlo's horrible Mexico City trolly car accident at the age of 18, which apparently she didn't include in early iterations of the show (not including anything about it seems crazy to me). As an introduction to this section of the show, Severo returns to herself, to talk about how close she came to having her toes amputated to be attached as "fingers" on her deformed, left hand. In the performance, I didn't even register there was anything different about this hand until she called it out, raising it in the air to make it a vivid demonstration. I keep thinking about how long it would have taken me to realize there was something different about it if she never called it out, if at all.

I do have some ambivalence about the perspective shifts, though, not to mention the performance of a Mexian woman by someone who is definitively not that. I have tried to find some theater criticism that might address this, and this review by Chicago's Hyde Park Herald of the show when it was there in February 2025 does a pretty good job of it. I do think Severo is a great performer; the staging is undeniably fantastic; and I really am glad I got to see it. I just also think the writing could use some further polish. I suppose overall if I'd give the show a letter grade, I'd give it a B+.

— छह हज़ार चालीस —

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— छह हज़ार चालीस —

As for the rest of the weekend, there's not much more to tell. I'm back at the office as of today, and it sort of registered for the first time that although I worked from home all last week, so it's not like I've been off work all this time, I haven't been in-office for a solid two weeks. I'm so happy to be back here, I must say; the work-from-home desk setup is just not up to par, as I use a TV monitor as an external monitor, and texts and colors are just not as defined or clear. It's far easier to work with the dual monitors I have at my work desk, which are actual computer monitors. It's like night and day, the difference.

Gabby has actually told me in the past that if I wanted, she could advocate for PCC to provide equipment so I could set up an equivalent work station at home. This was after I told her I'm not willing to fork over my own money to recreate the same work station at home; I don't know that PCC would foot the bill even if she fought for it, but who knows? The thing is, I'm not convinced it's worth the effort. I worked from home for a week last year when Shobhit had covid (and technically I did too, eventually, though I was always asymptomatic, aside from the anxiety of expecting to get sick); in all likelihood last week will wind up being the only week I work from home this year. And even if there's one other week in which it happens before the end of the year, as that really worth it? I feel like it's a lot of investment for a work station that would get used literally 3.4% of the year at most. I make do with what I have when I have to work from home, and then I get back to the office again.

I think Shobhit was expecting to drive me to work this morning, but he was still sound asleep when I was ready to go, so I just kissed him goodbye as usual and left. He didn't register this until I was on the bus, which was about to arrive anyway. We both agreed that I shouldn't walk to work this morning, with all my work equipment—laptop, keyboard, etc—weighing down my backpack. I figured riding the bus would be fine. That said, it was a little tiring just walking the two blocks from the bus stop. Trying to walk the entire way with that weighed-down backpack would have been horrible. And even without it weighed down, I will likely walk to work and bus home for the next week or more. I still need to take it easy.

I did forget to grab my afternoon dose of Extra Strength Tylenol before leaving. Shobhit was a sweetheart and walked it down here for me; I knew he'd be out getting his steps in anyway. I would not have liked not having my afternoon dose handy. I'm still significantly relying on the Tylenol to manage the pain. It's pretty low-level but always here; I have an empathy for people with chronic pain like I've never been capable of having before. As I sit here in my desk chair, though, I'm not really in pain. There's a slight discomfort but that's it. When I next have to use the bathroom, unbottoning my pants will increase the pain slightly.

I have more pain each day I get out of bed, but after about an hour or so of being up and moving around, it subsides fairly substantially. Gabby texted to ask how I was feeling on Friday and whether I'd return to the office this week, and I said that was the plan. She said I could go home if I get too uncomfortable, which I said I knew. You've got ptions, she said; I replied, Yep, it's one of the multitude of wonderful things about this job. 😊

I had a nice surprise on my desk when I got here this morning: a gift from Tony's Coffee, one of our vendors. It was in a larger box, which, when I opened it, had a smaller box inside. David, the guy from Tony's must have remembered that I actually don't drink coffee; he sent me a box of four 25-bag boxes of my favorite tea, Earl Gray by Stash Tea! It's what I drink every day at work. This kind of cracks me up because we actually use UNFI as our distributor for Stash Tea, not Tony's. It was a very sweet thing to come to work to.

I also realized when I got to work today that I had half-considered buying a ticket to Amanda's current concert for the chorus she's in, the Northwest Firelight Chorale. The thing is, tickets are like $25, which isn't that bad really, but is a big enough chunk in my tight budget (most of which, outside of regular bills, goes to travel planning). They always have like three dates for each concert, and the final one for their spring concert is June 13—when Shobhit and I are leaving for Whistler. The previous two were June 5 and 6, which was Friday and Saturday over the weekend. I was already going to Pride in the Park on Saturday, and two different things would have been too much right now, just physically in my current state. My Friday evening was totally free of plans, but I never even though about it, and besides I was good with a quiet evening at home after Shobhit and I had done the First Thursday Art Walk in Pioneer Square the day before.

So, the rest of the weekend was just watching TV for the most part. Shobhit and I have now completed the first two seasons of Curb Your Enthusiasm on HBO Max, which goes back and forth between slightly grating and genuinly hilarious. The show fascinates me because it's so similar to Seinfeld, but like an R-rated version of it since it was made for HBO. I enjoy the show overall, but we can only do a few episodes at a time, then we need a break.

— छह हज़ार चालीस —

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[posted 12:32pm]

Seattle Pride in the Park 2026

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It's been two years since I was last at Seattle Pride in the Park, because this event always happens on the first Saturday of June as a kickoff event to Pride month, but last year on that day Shobhit and I were in Washington, D.C. for World Pride, so missing Seattle Pride in the Park was a relatively small price to pay.

That makes two years I've missed this event since I started going in 2017; I also missed it in 2018 because that year, back in its early days as the "Volunteer Park Pride Festival," that was the day we left for Wallace, Idaho as a pit stop on our drive to our anniversary trip to Yellowstone National Park.

I have to digress a little here now, because the Seattle Pride organization produces "Pride in the Park," which has been the official name of the event since 2022. But, it was previously known as the "Volunteer Park Pride Festival," and even before that, the "Pride Picnic." I don't know how I did not register attending this event until 2017, but it apparently began in 2009—apparently always organized by the Seattle Pride organization, Seattle Out & Proud. It was the "Pride Picnic" between 2010 and 2015; rebranded the "Capitol Hill Pride Festival" between 2016 and 2019; was canceled in 2020 due to covid and postponed to what they called the "All Together Now In-Person Pride Event" at Volunteer Park (where Shobhit and I both got covid boosters) in September 2021; and then became "Seattle Pride in the Park" in 2022. I suspect I never went in the early years because it struck me as a small, neighborhood even that had little for me; they may not even have had much in the way of stage performances in those years. But ever since it became a larger, Pride Month kickoff event, I have been much more interested, and have come each year I was able since 2017, and so I attended in 2017, 2019, and then 2021 through 2024; and now back again in 2026.

Who I have gone with has varied over the years, although of the seven times I have gone, Shobhit has joined me the most times, at four. Back in 2024, though, he had to work, but Laney went with me (she has come with me three times), and we were there from 1:10 to at least 5:45—largely because, in addition to browsing the booths, we watched some of the main stage performances, and we also spent some time getting drinks and dancing. That was like four and a half hours, which provided plenty time for me to take 49 shots for that year's photo album, the second-highest on record (the record was the 59 shots in 2023, the one year both Shobhit and Laney came with me; Laney and I arrived together that year first, again at around 1:10, and Shobhit met up with us later; the first photo I took of him that day was at 2:56, but he must have been there a bit by then, as that photo is of him napping on the blanket tote next to Laney. My final photo at the park that day was take at 6:49, so that was a pretty long one. As I recall that day ended with Laney and me sitting amongst the trees and her having a drunken cigarette.

Anyway! The point is, this year Shobhit and I got to Volunteer Park at noon, right when the event started; we left right when it started raining, at about 2:50. So this year was only about three hours, so a 39-shot photo album for that amount of time isn't bad.

Laney was going to be coming this year, but canceled a couple of days prior because she's just too busy preparing to move out of her apartment and into her new travel van on the 15th. The weather forecast had long been dicey for Saturday anyway, and the sense that I got was that she was not super likely to go if it was going to be rainy anyway, so this really did not significantly break with my expectations. Ironically, the hourly forecast kept changing throughout the day, and by the time we were shortly to be leaving, the daily little icons had clouds but no rain until 5:00! That changed again later, with like 35% chance of rain by 3:00, but I thought whatever, I'll take it!

Laney had mentioned a chorus I had never heard of, and when she was planning to go she wanted to be there by noon, to see them perform. They're called STANCE, which stands for Seattle Trans And Nonbinary Choral Ensemble. I had never heard of them and this piqued my interest, so I still wanted to get there by noon to see them even after Laney backed out. So, Shobhit and I left to walk to Volunteer Park at 11:35. Normally this walk would take 20 minutes tops, but I wanted to pad some time given my current condition after my bike accident, the recovery from which is pretty slow going. On the upside, the weather was shockingly gorgeous the whole walk there: merely partly cloudy skies; I had to wear my sunglasses; I took off my jacket and held it most of the walk.

Indeed, the first photo I took while entering the Pride area of Volunteer Park was at 12:04. Once we reached the amphitheater area, though, we did see a drag performance by the emcee, Aleksa Manila, but after that, a whole lot of not much. I even took a photo of the mainstage lineup as we walked into the main section of vendor booths, and it showed STANCE as the second performer inside the first section. With nothing happening onstage, though, I suggested we just browse the booths and then go back toward the stage once we heard they were on.

I am only realizing now, looking at that lineup schedule again, that the first block was two hours and not just one; it was nearly 1:00 by the time we finished browsing the booths, and I thought they must have missed the gig or something. There was nothing by DJ music being played from the stage that entire time, and then Shobhit and I moved on to other sections of the park. For all I know they did perform between 1:00 and 2:00, but if they did, I totally missed it.

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Aside from the minor pains in my abdomen slowing me down a little (and if I have to pee, just re-doing my fly and belt buckle takes way longer than normal), the rest of it was pretty standard routine for our experience with these events. Shobhit likes to walk past all the booths there are, and stop at a lot of them. We stopped for several minutes at the Seattle Gay News booth, of course, and Renee got up and gave us both big hugs. We caught up and I said I couldn't promise but may be interested in a write-up about World Pride Amsterdam, just as I had done last year for World Pride D.C.. Renee was very interested, as I thought she might be. I also learned a little more about how the paper is doing, and she mentioned a small history museum about the paper at their current office at All Pilgrims Church on Broadway. I may actually go check it out sometime.

We went to lots of other booths as well, getting the swag Shobhit always loves to get (okay, I enjoy some of it too), including sunscreen, candy, condoms and lube (god knows when I'll comfortably be able to have sex again), little clear shoulder-strap bags, and more. We walked through the road with the food trucks, and we split a personal Chicago-style pizza from Delfino's, which Shobhit was convinced was the place that had provided the pizza at the LMN Designs event during First Thursday Art Walk, except he said the same thing about the pizza place right in Occidental Square, and that place is actually called DeLeo Bros Pizza (and their pizzas did not look quite as deep as what we had at LMN Designs anyway).

We walked through more booths on the north lawn at the park, closer to the Volunteer Park Conservatory. By the time we made our way back it was around 1:30, and still it hadn't rained! After browsing a little bit more (including a booth amusingly selling "cum towels" with fairly graphic illustrations on them, resulting in my Bluesky post getting slapped with an "Adult Content" warning), I wanted to just sit and listen to the performers for a bit, and that's what we did for most of the hour between 2:00 and 3:00. We saw a lovely singer named Grace Love; we watched Cheer Seattle; and we watched Rainbow City Marching Band.

I might even have stayed a bit longer, except that it turned chilly enough that Shobhit, who had worn only shorts and a Pride tank top over a harness, asked to wear my jacket; for a good while I was actually comfortable enough without the jacket (which I had smartly brought along) so it was fine. But, even after the Executive Director of Pride got earlier on the mic and told us all that the weather was cooperating because she "took care of it," the rain finally started to fall at around 2:45. It wasn't super heavy, but it was enough, and I was ready to go home anyway. Aleksa Manila got on the mic and said, "Jesus is crying!"

Shobhit and I did stop at the outhouses on the way out, as we both needed to pee. This was basically under tree canopy so the light rain really didn't hit us there. I got a pretty good shot while I was standing in line there, of a guy I could only describe as "queer priest." Or maybe "priest" is the wrong word. Friar? I have no idea!

The southbound bus was so delayed that it never even caught up with us as Shobhit and I walked back home on 15th, after Shobhit bought a couple of tomato plant starts from a guy selling them in his front yard. Boy, do I feel young! I'm walking carefully to minimize pain and my husband is buying tomato plants. The excitement never stops in my neck of the woods. It did rain fairly steadily the whole walk home; Shobhit had his collapsible umbrella but he kept walking faster than I could. I didn't get too terribly wet, whatever. We spent much of the rest of the day working on the jigsaw puzzle of illustrated cats that he broght back from Portland, before I got a notice from Letterboxd that The King of Comedy, which I had never seen, was available on Prime Video. Shobhit continued working on the puzzle the entire time I watched it. We've otherwise been binging Curb Your Enthusiasm, which neither of us has ever watched either, around four episodes or so a day. Anyway that puzzle will almost certainly be finished today.

Well, I already have my Seattle Pride 2026 collection of albums started. I'm not sure how many separate Pride albums I'll manage this year, but probably at least eight, maybe more. I already have the requisite "Random Hot Guys" album going (a 22-year tradition!), but only one guy in it so far in this year's album. It was too cool weather-wise for there to be many guys in briefs or short shorts or whatnot, although there was that one guy with a great ass who had the nerve to wear shorter spandex under his short shorts. Rude.

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